Table of Contents ---Fragments of a Dissociative Universe---

My story is written with unfiltered honesty and contains difficult material related to medical trauma, childhood sexual abuse, grief, mental health struggles, substance use, and violence. Your safety is important. Please be kind to yourself as you read, and know that it is always okay to take a break or stop altogether.

If you need support, please reach out. You can contact a crisis helpline or a trusted person in your life. Reading about trauma can bring up strong feelings; please proceed with caution and care for your well-being.


[Chapter One: The Frozen Room]

  *The winter everything shattered*

[Chapter Two: A Flawed Entry]

   *Birth, trauma, and unexpected survival*

[Chapter Three: The Ghost in the Machine]

   *My father's death and its aftermath*

[Chapter Four: The Soundtrack of L'Acadie]

   *A neighborhood haunted by darkness*

[Chapter Five: The Man in the Car]

   *A Halloween that taught me about predators*

[Chapter Six: The Day of the Fall]

   *The accident that broke more than teeth*

[Chapter Seven: The Kingdom of a Lonely Boy]

   *Solitude and survival in a broken home*

[Chapter Eight: The Thirty-Second Prophet]

   *The punk who showed me another way*

[Chapter Nine: From Marbles to Madness]

   *Early lessons in survival and betrayal*

[Chapter Ten: The Endless Downfall]

    *The Point of no return*

   



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